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TODAY WAS THE SPINE DR'S CHECKUP .
I AM ANGRY AND VERY TEARFUL HE (THE SPINE DR) WANTS. ME TO DO TOTAL WASTE OF TIME THEREAPY SESSIONS THE SAME THINGS I HAVE HAD TO TRY ALL MY ADULT LIFE AND THEY HAVE FAILED. SIMPLY POINTLESS I TOLD HIM THAT AND NOT FOR THE FIRST TIME.
I HAVE TO GO BACK AGAIN IN 3 MONTHS.I HAVE NO RESTRICTIONS.
HE SAYS THAT IT WILL BE ANOTHER 3 - 6 MONTHS BEFORE I WILL BE CLOSER TO MORE HEALED AND MAYBE ANOTHER YEAR.
I AM SO ANGRY I KNEW THIS WOULD BE THE OUTCOME OF TODAY. PAIN MANAGEMENT AND THERAPY I HAVE BEEN THROUGH MOST OF MY ADULT LIFE AND THEY DONT WORK
WELL THATS IT .I HAVE THROWN THE TOWEL IN.I AM ALL OUT OF FIGHT
WHAT WITH ALL THE STROKE PITFALLS AS WELL.(I HAVE THE NURO DR APPOINTMENT AND MRI ETC COME JULY AS WELL) I AM SORRY COS YOU HAVE ALL BEEN SO WONDERFUL TO ME... BUT I HAVE NOTHING LEFT.
I HAVE BEEN TOLD TO SLEEP ON IT.. TOMORROW IS ANOTHER DAY. YES IT IS.. ANOTHER DAY THE SAME .
NEXT WEEK AT LEAST WE GET OUR SECOND VACCINE SHOT. GREAT !
I DO SEND YOU ALL MY HEARTFELT LOVE. SO MANY OF YOU HAVE HUGE PROBLEMS AND SORROWS TO DEAL WITH. I AM SORRY FOR THIS WHINING UPDATE. PLEASE DON'T FEEL YOU NEED TO COMMENT !!
HUGS AND LOVE
PAM
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AUJOURD'HUI, C'ÉTAIT LA VISITE DE CONTRÔLE DU MÉDECIN SPÉCIALISTE DE LA COLONNE VERTÉBRALE.
JE SUIS EN COLÈRE ET J'AI LES LARMES AUX YEUX. JE SUIS EN COLÈRE ET JE PLEURE BEAUCOUP. IL (LE MÉDECIN DE LA COLONNE VERTÉBRALE) VEUT QUE JE FASSE DES SÉANCES DE THÉRAPIE QUI SONT UNE PERTE DE TEMPS TOTALE, LES MÊMES CHOSES QUE J'AI DÛ ESSAYER TOUTE MA VIE D'ADULTE ET QUI ONT ÉCHOUÉ. JE LUI AI DIT QUE CELA NE SERVAIT À RIEN ET CE N'EST PAS LA PREMIÈRE FOIS.
JE DOIS Y RETOURNER DANS 3 MOIS. JE N'AI AUCUNE RESTRICTION.
IL DIT QU'IL FAUDRA ENCORE 3 À 6 MOIS AVANT QUE JE SOIS PLUS OU MOINS GUÉRIE ET PEUT-ÊTRE ENCORE UN AN.
JE SUIS TELLEMENT EN COLÈRE QUE JE SAVAIS QUE CE SERAIT LE RÉSULTAT D'AUJOURD'HUI. LA GESTION DE LA DOULEUR ET LA THÉRAPIE QUE J'AI SUIVIES PENDANT PRESQUE TOUTE MA VIE D'ADULTE NE FONCTIONNENT PAS.
J'AI JETÉ L'ÉPONGE. JE SUIS À BOUT DE FORCE.
JE SUIS DÉSOLÉ CAR VOUS AVEZ TOUS ÉTÉ SI MERVEILLEUX AVEC MOI... MAIS JE N'AI PLUS RIEN.
ON M'A DIT DE DORMIR DESSUS... DEMAIN EST UN AUTRE JOUR. OUI... UN AUTRE JOUR PAREIL.
LA SEMAINE PROCHAINE AU MOINS, NOUS AURONS NOTRE DEUXIÈME VACCIN. C'EST GÉNIAL !
JE VOUS ENVOIE TOUT MON AMOUR SINCÈRE. VOUS ÊTES SI NOMBREUX À AVOIR D'ÉNORMES PROBLÈMES ET DES PEINES À GÉRER. JE SUIS DÉSOLÉ POUR CETTE MISE À JOUR PLEURNICHARDE. S'IL VOUS PLAÎT, NE VOUS SENTEZ PAS OBLIGÉ DE COMMENTER !
HUGS ET AMOUR
PAM
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HEUTE WAR DIE WIRBELSÄULENUNTERSUCHUNG .
ICH BIN WÜTEND UND SEHR WEINERLICH ER (DER WIRBELSÄULENDOKTOR) WILL. ER (DER WIRBELSÄULENDOKTOR) WILL, DASS ICH TOTALE ZEITVERSCHWENDUNG MACHE UND DIE GLEICHEN DINGE MACHE, DIE ICH MEIN GANZES ERWACHSENES LEBEN LANG VERSUCHT HABE UND SIE SIND GESCHEITERT. EINFACH SINNLOS ICH HABE IHM DAS GESAGT UND NICHT ZUM ERSTEN MAL.
ICH MUSS IN 3 MONATEN WIEDER HINGEHEN. ICH HABE KEINE EINSCHRÄNKUNGEN.
ER SAGT, DASS ES WEITERE 3 - 6 MONATE DAUERN WIRD, BIS ICH ANNÄHERND GEHEILT BIN UND VIELLEICHT NOCH EIN JAHR.
ICH BIN SO WÜTEND, DASS ICH WUSSTE, DASS DIES DAS ERGEBNIS VON HEUTE SEIN WÜRDE. SCHMERZBEHANDLUNG UND THERAPIE HABE ICH DIE MEISTE ZEIT MEINES ERWACHSENENLEBENS DURCHGEMACHT UND SIE FUNKTIONIEREN NICHT
NUN, DAS WAR'S. ICH HABE DAS HANDTUCH GEWORFEN. ICH BIN VÖLLIG KAMPFUNFÄHIG
ICH HABE DAS HANDTUCH GEWORFEN. ICH HABE KEINEN KAMPF MEHR, AUCH NICHT MIT DEN GANZEN SCHLAGANFALL-FALLEN.(ICH HABE DEN NURO DR-TERMIN UND MRI ETC. AUCH IM JULI) ES TUT MIR LEID, WEIL IHR ALLE SO WUNDERBAR ZU MIR GEWESEN SEID... ABER ICH HABE NICHTS MEHR.
MAN HAT MIR GESAGT, ICH SOLLE DARÜBER SCHLAFEN... MORGEN IST EIN NEUER TAG. JA ES IST... EIN ANDERER TAG, DER GLEICHE.
NÄCHSTE WOCHE BEKOMMEN WIR WENIGSTENS DIE ZWEITE IMPFUNG. GROSSARTIG !
ICH SENDE EUCH ALLEN MEINE HERZLICHE LIEBE. SO VIELE VON EUCH HABEN GROSSE PROBLEME UND SORGEN, MIT DENEN SIE UMGEHEN MÜSSEN. ES TUT MIR LEID FÜR DIESES WEINERLICHE UPDATE. BITTE HABT NICHT DAS GEFÜHL, DASS IHR KOMMENTIEREN MÜSST!
HUGS UND LIEBE
PAM
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16 comments
StoneRoad2013 said:
LOST FOR WORDS BUT SENDING SYMPATHY AND HEALING VIBES - AND LICKS FROM BEN DE-DOG ; AND OUR TRIBE OF MANY PAWS.
WE HAVE BEEN ADOPTED BY A BLACK AND WHITE FARM CAT, SO SHY HE WOULDN'T ACCEPT A FUSS AT FIRST.
I GET MY SECOND JAB IN FOUR DAYS AND ONE HOUR --- A THREE WEEK PAUSE TO BUILD MORE IMMUNITY AND THEN I MIGHT GO FOR A SOCIAL TRIP OUT SOMEWHERE WITH OTHER HALF OR POSSIBLY MEET UP WITH SOME FRIENDS FOR A PICNIC.
WEATHER HERE IS MORE SPRINGLIKE, AT LAST - OUR DAFFODILS ARE FINALLY MAKING A BRAVE SHOW.
KEEP AS WELL AS YOU CAN
SARA
Pam J replied to StoneRoad2013:
YAYYY FOR BEING ADOPTED ITS HIW ALL MY CAT COLONY HAVE JOINED MY TRBE. IT TAKES TIME TO GET THEIR TRUST
SO HAPPY FOR YOU AND THE VACCINE .WISHING YOU JOY FOR BEING ABLE TO ENJOY SOME KIND OF NORMALACY AGAIN
BIG HUGSSS
Jenny McIntyre said:
I HAVE BEEN TOLD THAT I'M AS GOOD AS I CAN GET, BUT IT MAKES ME FED-UP FOR SOME OF THE TIME, BECAUSE IT MAKES ME FEEL OLD, AND I DON'T WANT TO FEEL OLD!! I DO FEEL THAT I CAN'T BE BOTHERED TO COOK A MEAL THOUGH - THIS LOCKDOWN, EVEN THOUGH IT DOESN'T AFFECT ME AS SUCH - I REALLY MISS HAVING A CAR THAT WORKS!!!! ON THE DAYS THAT I FEEL FED UP - I COULD DRIVE TO THE SEA AND THAT ALWAYS PICKS ME UP. I ALSO MISS MY DAUGHTER SO MUCH - IT'S BEEN ALMOST 2 YEARS SINCE I LAST SAW HER AND IT'S 5 MONTHS SINCE I LAST SAW MY SON - SO I DO FEEL LONELY AT TIMES. I'VE HAD BOTH MY VACCINES TOO, BUT MY DAUGHTER HASN'T HAD ANY YET. I'M JUST WAITING FOR IT TO BE POSSIBLE TO VISIT HER.
DON'T THROW IN THE TOWEL THOUGH SWEETIE, IT'S EASY TO GIVE UP, BUT YOU'RE NOT THAT KIND OF PERSON - YOU'RE A FIGHTER. JUST ACCEPT THAT THERE ARE GOING TO BE DAYS WHERE YOU FEEL LIKE SH*T, BUT SUMMER IS COMING AND DAYS WILL BE LOVELY AND WARM WHICH SHOULD MAKE YOU FEEL BETTER.
I'M SENDING YOU BIG HUUUGGGS FOR THE FUTURE. LOVE JENNY XX
Pam J said:
LOVE TO MISS MANDY TOO.
I CANT DRIVE HERE.... AND THE SEA IS THOUSANDS OF MILES . YOU KNOW I MISS THE WEST COUNTRY AND THE SEA TO THE POINT OF PAIN.
BE WELL LADY. REMEMBER WE HAVE SKYPE.
HUGSSSSSSS
PAM
Mickey fez said:
Big Hugs
Pam J replied to Mickey fez:
I AM DOING MY BEST !
HUGSSSSSSS
Jocelyne Villoing said:
Toutes mes pensées vous accompagnent.
Je vous embrasse bien affectueusement. Jocelyne.
Pam J said:
THANKYOU FOR YOUR KINDNESS
Maeluk said:
Pam J said:
YHANKYOU FOR YOUR KIND WORD AND UNDERSTANDING
neira-Dan said:
Pam J replied to neira-Dan:
I TRY NOT TO BE ANGRY... BUT I JUST CANT BE GOING THROUGH TH SAME FAILURES TIME AND AGAIN
HUGSSSSS
Anne Elliott said:
I DO UNDERSTAND WHAT YOU SAID ABOUT THERAPY. OF COURSE, THE RIGHT KIND OF THERAPY FOR THE RIGHT PERSON CAN WORK WONDERS, BUT I UNDERSTAND YOUR FEELINGS AFTER GOING THOUGH IT ALL BEFORE. QUITE A FEW YEARS AGO, THE DISC IN THE LEFT SIDE OF MY JAW DISINTEGRATED AND A TINY PIECE GOT STUCK IN THE JOINT, SO i COULDN'T REALLY OPEN MY MOUTH. THE PAIN PERSON I WAS DEALING WITH ARRANGED A THERAPY SESSION AND I JUST SAT THERE, THINKING THAT I DON'T NEED THAT KIND OF EMOTIONAL THERAPY! I JUST WANTED THE PAIN TO STOP AND TO BE ABLE TO OPEN MY MOUTH. THAT WAS THE ONLY SESSION I HAD : ) EVENTUALLY, AFTER EVERYTHING FROM ACUPUNCTURE, WEARING A MOUTH PIECE FOR MAYBE A YEAR AND A HALF, ETC, THE TINY PIECE DISLODGED BY ITSELF AND I COULD OPEN MY MOUTH AGAIN. YOU HAVE SO MUCH MORE TO DEAL WITH - AND WE ALL KNOW YOU CAN DO IT, PAM. HANG IN THERE! HUGS XXXX
Pam J said:
BYES.. WE HAD THE 2ND SHOT YESTERDAY. JUST HAVE SORE ARMS TODAY. THANKFULLY NO OTHER SIDE EFFECTS. AND YES THERE IS A SENSE OF RELIEF.
BIG HUGSSSSSS
Rainer Blankermann said:
I hope you feel better during the next weeks and months! Hugs....