Hiya folks, yes my dear friend and helper, Emily - is leaving to go to a permanent job in a Nursing Home. I don't blame her, because the price of petrol has risen so much, she is finding all the travelling from one place to another to do her cleaning etc, is costing her more money than she's actually earning. She's such a lovely girl, she's already asked around for cleaners for me who are fine with helping me more. So tomorrow I'm going to contact the one she recommended - another girl that she's known for the last 25 or so years, so I trust her judgement.

I'll miss Emily so much - she's been coming once a week for over 4 years now and I trust her completely and rely on her a lot. The thought of her not coming up every Tuesday does actually fill me with dread. I think as I get older, I'm getting more and more anti-change. As long as things I'm already used to carries on the same, I'm happy - but when there's change - it unsettles me. I never used to be like this - maybe it's the brain haemorrhage that rewired my brain differently. I look on Emily as daughter number two and can share my feelings with her - now I'll have to get used to someone else. Apparently she has already mentioned to her friend, that I need a helper more than a cleaner. She said that that was okay with her - so hopefully it'll work out. Emily has said that she'll still call in now and then for a coffee and a chat. So that'll be great. Not completely losing her.

Well next Tuesday is the last day Emily is here for me, so after that - who knows?