Lucas died in my arms at 3.33am this morning. He went into a rapid decline around 10.30pm... I laid on the floor with him all night and talked to him and cuddled him and that Beautiful Boy.. that exquisite Light.. went out in my arms.

He is going back to the Stardust from whence he came.

Lucas 1st June 2007 - 1st July 2015. His birth date is approximate.. it was the day we gave him as his Life Day

I dont have a "Faith" but I do believe whatever atoms of Stardust that are me... will return to the stars.. and my Beloved Ones will be in that Starshine too.

Lucas is going to be cremated.. so he will be going away tomorrow.. and coming Home again soon

I so didnt want to have to do the worst at the Vets.. great as they are(and Aaron IS a wonderful vet and fella) I wanted it to be here.. and it was


Flicka was beside us... I let him sniff and lick and let him see me wrap Lukie in a sheet.. he knew Lucas was sick.. he knows Lucas is gone. He will grieve... as they do.. too

I am writing this whilst I am numb... right now.. numb is good.

Most of us have walked this road before... and you know... my heart is breaking.

This photo was taken just a week before out of the blue he was diagnosed with a failing mitral heart valve


EXPLORED ... and this one means everything to me.