Hiya folks,llo

Here I am, writing to you from my home. Oh boy was that a long time away. I didn't realise how ill I actually was until they told me!!! Apparently I had a lot of fluid around my heart and also around my kidneys, lungs and liver!!! So they put me on very strong fluid dispersal drips. Through my cannular this amazing medicine kept me alive and got rid of a lot of fluid - 10kg in fact!!!! Can you believe that? When I had sepsis a few years ago, it damaged my heart and kidneys, so the heart couldn't pump away as it should, so the fluid built up and it was almost "Goodnight" for me. I gathered it was serious when they started asking about DNR and whether I was willing to sign a form for it - I was so shocked and angry at the same time - that I told them that there was no way I was going to sign any form like that. I said that I had no intention of leaving this earth, and I was going to keep on fighting, besides I thought it only right to give my children the right to say goodbye to me, rather than have them get that phonecall and not have anyone to say goodbye too - besides Mandi can't leave Turkey anyway - so that would be so unfair to her. So nothing was signed.

So eventually on Friday night, they allowed me to leave the hospital, which was wonderful news. Bit of a culture shock though - in the hospital it was so nice and cosy - warm enough to sleep under a sheet and a thin blanket, but boy when I came out - it was already -4C (24.8F) - now my house doesn't have any central heating - just a radiator and a small halogen fire. I was so cold, so hot water bottles and blankets to the rescue. When I eventually got to bed - it was so wonderfully cosy and warm, there's nothing like fleeced cotton sheets. Mmmm bliss !!!!

I see that Mickey has been keeping you all up to date with my condition, which is wonderful of him. He's certainly upheld his side of the friendship we've had for about 15 years. He's a wonderful man and my best friend.

Well it took me about 2 days to adjust to life at home on my own - bit scary because I'd had qualified nurses/doctors etc around me all the time, should anything happen to me - now I was all alone - it scary as I said. Well on Sunday I decided that I was going to get back to my resin craftwork and made a few pendants.







Oh boy did I miss doing these. I'm sorry if I am boring you with these pendants, but I feel so happy to see how well they have come out.

Oh well, I suppose this will have to do for my first blog at home - just wait until the rest of what I want to say - suffice to say I was in a ward where I was the only person who knew her name and where she was!!!!!! Boy was that great!!!

Okay folks, until next time. I do hope you are keeping safe. It was great to see on the main news while I was there, that my home area of Torridge (just part of Bideford) and the Shetland Islands were the lowest areas for COVID19 infections in the whole of Great Britain!!!! The nurses said they had only 4 people in the hospital with COVID19 but they were doing well.

I must say - I was so proud to have these amazing nurses and doctors looking after me - they are all unbelievably patient and kind and they deserve whatever praise they get - amazing people